Posted by rnny on May 3, 2010, at 23:02:32
In reply to my therapist is worried about me, posted by sadlittlegirl on May 3, 2010, at 19:23:14
Having suffered a career "setback" and a miscarriage around the same time would put anybody in a depression. Both of those things are things that any person would be angry about. In fact, just suffering one of those things is enough to put people in despair. At least people with my makeup, how about I phrase it like that. After graduating law school and being offered the job of a lifetime some things happened that caused me to have a career set back and wow. Did I get depressed. I was bedridden and physically couldn't get out. I slept day and night and around the clock. I would go to be on a Friday evening knowing that I would be spending the entire weekend in bed. I only got up to use the bathroom, take my dog out, feed her, eat something myself and back to bed. I lived in bed for a very long time. It is really distressing to have to find entry level work in a field when you are 3/4 of the way through with your master's. I am a full blown lawyer but people were saying maybe I should get a job in a law firm answering phones! You said, >>>left alone with my thoughts, I cry a lot, feel hopeless, have no motivation, go back and forth between feeling very sad or very angry, and have thoughts of suicide<<<. I feel your pain. Gosh, I am just going to remember your quote and will mimic that to my T since that is how I feel. I saw her today and was talking about feeling suicidal without a plan to hurt myself. Feeling that made no sence I changed it to me feeling a deep sence of despair. So deep in fact I asked her if I could see her 2x a week for a while. She didn't seem too thrilled but heck. I need help. I am genuinely sorry you lost your baby. I think more than anything that is the saddest and most devastating part of this. Of course you are unhappy and grief stricken. Of course a mother who has lost her baby doesn't want to live. Some people (those lacking in all manner of empathy and the ability to discern fact from fiction) don't think a miscarriage is the loss of a child. But that is sheer idiocy. It is the loss of a child and I am very, very sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself. I know you will. Good for you for sharing your heartbreaking experiences with this board. I am glad I have met someone like you. Hugs.. ((((sadlittlegirl)))
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