Posted by Willful on January 17, 2010, at 9:48:09
In reply to I'm back, posted by Verloren on January 16, 2010, at 23:14:43
I'm sorry you won't be able to be here while you're at your cousins. It seems really unfortunate-- very very- that you've got to sacrifice some of the support network you've already got. Maybe there's some reason it's better not to see your T-- but it sounds really stressful to be away from her now-when you're making changes and trying to solidify skills--- and need all the optimism and stick-to-itiveness that you can muster.
Same with here-- you've been so open and I hope started to feel like you belong here and aren't so alone. That feeling of being alone is so hard to cope with-- even if you're meeting people and hard at work with another program. You just need the familiar people and places, too.
Is there any way you can get access more frequently to a computer, if you can't have one at your cousins? Are there hot spots anywhere or libraries that have computers available to the public. I know around here there are some places that have that.
I'm really glad though that you do have the resources, of your own and the environment to go through t his program. It could really help you so much in the future--even if it's tough right now.
And I really admire your resolve so much in going there. I dont' know if I would be take on that much change and be under the scrutiny of others-- and not my own boss. Even if it feels like you're a kid-- you're doing the most mature and responsible thing you possibly can-- working for the long term, and putting aside some of your more immediate needs. And maybe over time, your relationship with your T can evolve to be more satisfying-- and to meet more of your emotional needs.
I'll definitely miss you and look forward to your coming back. You are coming back, aren't you?
all the best,
Willful
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