Posted by TherapyGirl on December 11, 2009, at 18:21:01
In reply to Re: Help with Screening New Ts? » Dinah, posted by pegasus on December 11, 2009, at 9:11:41
It is really helpful for me to read what both of you have written about this, Peg & Dinah.
I ended up going to my session last night, but taking my dog as a barrier. There was lots of anger and silence at first and she still doesn't think she should have had a referral ready for me, but about halfway through (I was sitting on the floor with Bayleigh at that point), she said, "I'm sorry we keep missing each other. And I hate it when you're mad at me." I said, "Not as much as I do." She said, "Forgive me?" And I said, "I keep trying, but you keep pissing me off." She laughed and said, "I know. I don't mean to." So things were slightly better after that.
She is thinking about the referral along the same lines I was -- that DBT is the next place for me to go (and we haven't actually had that conversation before). She explained a little more about why she had ruled out everyone in her practice, so that was a little easier to swallow as well.
She wants me to think about the last two sessions. She suggested that instead of meeting at the office, we go out to dinner or walk our dogs together or something like that. Part of me prefers that -- it seems safer. And part of me is terrified that I will barf up all of these feelings in a public place.
This is really, really hard.
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