Posted by Daisym on October 27, 2009, at 2:04:00
Please do not twitter or facebook this post.
To all my Babble friends,
I find myself posting less and less these days. Maybe I'm healthier or maybe I'm just busier...who knows? I just don't have that much to say right now. But I still read every night and hold you all in my thoughts, heart and prayers. But given the changes, now seems the right time to completely stop posting and just say good-bye.
It feels like a million years ago that I found Babble. I was new to therapy and new to talking about my trauma. So many, many people here helped me. I can honestly say I went through several "Dark nights of the soul" -- but my friends here understood and pulled me up and out. I will always be so grateful - and I love all of you for that. I need to especially acknowledge some of my original supports: Fallsfall, All Done, Annie Rose, Dinah, Garden Girl, Antigua, Muffled, Tender, Racer, Aphrodite, Tamar, Zen...there are so many, I'm sure I'm forgetting some - please, please don't be insulted or upset if I've left your name off the list. It is late and hard to think through all the emotions. And to Emmy (or is that ie?) --for taking a pbc for me and for telling me the story of her mom at the exact right moment. I've never forgotten - I never will. You'll never know the profound impact it had on me.
*sigh* Anyone who knows me, knows I'm not good at good-bye.
It's just that this isn't the right place for me anymore. Twitter and Facebook? I don't think so. I've always known that this was a public place - but this feels vastly different - it is too easy to just casually send things along - to move my words to someone who isn't even a member, who doesn't know the rules and who didn't even take the time to sign on. The community here has always felt drawn together by a shared pain. This is no more. Now our deep felt words, the ones we struggled with and agonized over in order to convey our feelings in just the right way, are just part of the insatiable voyeurism of the outside world.
I know it shouldn't feel that different. But it does. I feel let down, betrayed in some sense. I also totally can understand wanting something you created, like Babble, to be famous, or to make money. Wide distribution will do both. I can only choose for me when the rules change. So I'm choosing to leave. I'll still lurk in the corners, hoping things will change back.
With much love and wishes for a peaceful future for all,
Daisy
poster:Daisym
thread:922802
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20091022/msgs/922802.html