Posted by Daisym on September 28, 2009, at 19:36:37
In reply to Don't know how to heal from bad psychotherapy, posted by MadelynRose on September 28, 2009, at 12:24:36
Hi Maddie,
Here's the thing - we all beat ourselves up after the fact. I stayed in a bad marriage for 26 years - and I developed an exit plan for this marriage after 10 years. But I couldn't do it, for all the reasons you couldn't leave therapy. It takes a certain amount of support and growth to reach the place where you can yank yourself away.
But eventually, you did leave. You made a decision that was beneficial to yourself. That shows progress, especially from someone who suffers from PTSD. Leaving a therapy relationship filled with angst is akin to getting a divorce. You will need to grieve this for awhile.
From the sound of your post, you are still looking for "magic" answers - and perhaps CBT will be that magic. But in the meantime, I'd suggest reading the Feel Good book again. And treating yourself well - give yourself rewards and nurturing. Healing comes in so many forms, not just from insight. It helps when people are kind to us. But it also helps when we are kind to ourselves and can find joy and peace in everyday things.
I know how hard that is. But I think you are carrying a heavy burden that might not be all yours to carry. It is OK to set it down and rest.
Take care,
Daisy
poster:Daisym
thread:918829
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20090907/msgs/918879.html