Posted by rskontos on August 21, 2009, at 17:05:54
In reply to Re: Feeling kind of blue (**csa trigger) » Daisym, posted by antigua3 on August 20, 2009, at 13:26:35
Antigua,
I am not sure I can offer much. I am in much of the same place as you, perhaps I haven't remembered as much. It is, in my flashbacks, more vague and I tried desparately to stop some of the flashbacks because it was just too painful.
I all too well understand the angst you have experienced. I am not sure I can comfort you except to say I admire your progress and your determination. It is so (sigh) hard isn't it.
I understand the before I knew phase and the after I know phase. I feel caught between two worlds.
I was angry too and sometimes those angry parts come out. Recently it happened and it made me sad because I hurt someone close to me, without being able to stop myself. I viewed the incident from above myself if you will.
I haven't integrated all my parts and I worry about feeling how you do.
I do feel intuitively that you will reach a place of peace over the loss of those parts that helped you survive. I can hear it in your words.
take care my friend you are making REAL progress
rsk
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