Posted by rskontos on July 26, 2009, at 13:43:48
In reply to Growing up... Dinah, other 'veterans'?, posted by workinprogress on July 24, 2009, at 0:59:03
WIP,
I understand too. I have told my therapist/p-doc that I don't want to grow up and I especially resent having to parent myself too.
I don't still think of myself as growing up but I do feel stronger at times, fleeting but still there, and in those times I would say if asked I was growing up.
But I have found, at least, for me, that it isn't linear as Antigua says sometimes, that progress isn't linear. I take two maybe three steps forward in growing up and then sometimes 4-5 back to the point I think a hospital is what I need that i am just too FU to get well.
It sounds like your further in your progress than is safe to admit. I think it is ok to want to know you can depend on T to be a safe haven. I guess eventually the point is to believe in ourselves as the safe haven. That's a tough one.
rsk
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