Posted by mmealltalk on July 13, 2009, at 19:14:52
In reply to Re: Maintaining a contract with therapist, posted by yellowbird01 on July 13, 2009, at 18:23:47
Hi, and thanks for the replies... I understand what everyone is saying, and i dont blame my t for wanting the guidelines in writing, it just makes me feel like i am being punished. I admit, i have screwed up, on many occasions, but i was always welcomed back into her office despite how unstable i have felt, and been. There is something about this contract that reallly tears at my heart. I want my therapist to care, and feel positive toward me, and i am not saying she doesnt, but i feel like there is some horrible thing hanging over me, and it feels so, so painful. I dont necessarily think she is waiting for me to screw up so she can abandon me, but it feels like she has taken the first step in going in that direction. I could hear her now, asking me if i feel like i have any part in the situation that i complain so much about. And I know i do, i get that, but the knowledge doesnt erase the feelings of hurt and shame and self hatred i feel due to this contract. I am babbling, but i think i made my point.
mel
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