Posted by am3ma on April 30, 2009, at 17:53:37
In reply to Re: neivity and intelligence, posted by Phillipa on April 29, 2009, at 12:23:12
> I've never been street smart. Wasn't taught to be afraid. I feared what happened at home. I tend to people please and trust others as expect them to be as trustworthy as I am. I wouldn't hurt a flea unknowingly. Sometimes things just happen. I've trusted many docs to have them convince me to feel not ready to work again for example. Maybe they were right I don't know. I know I'm intelligent or why magna cum laude and straight A's in nursing school? Must be a reason why. I do have horrible low self-esteem and take all criticism to heart. Phillipa
Hi Phillipa,
thanks for sharing.
I did my best to research the condition of self-defeating behaviour and found some elements were true for myself now, how I've delivered my parenting skills and in people around me. I've also read Men Who Hate Women and The Women Who Love Them.
..."Self-discipline, to reject the negative inner voice and concentrate on the event, not the self.." I've known all along that this is the task but low self-esteem, the dominant demon which is awoken by external events reinforces its place despite the fact that I KNOW there is no place for it in my life, NOW !
It's hard work Phillipa, so "All the best", to you, me and everyone else.
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