Posted by backseatdriver on April 2, 2009, at 15:26:34
In reply to Is Healing Really Possible? csa trigger**, posted by antigua3 on April 2, 2009, at 14:19:23
I think it's possible. I think people grow no matter what; that people tend toward growth and not the opposite or stagnation.
I think it's a long road, though, with a lot of bumps and potholes. Progress for me comes in a lot of steps, all of which hurt like h*ll and in retrospect no one step ever seems transformative in a thoroughgoing way. Apparently the therapy process is cumulative -- and really inefficient.
At the same time, it helps me to remember that it took me eighteen long years to grow up and leave home. It is going to take me some time to unlearn the old patterns. I am always surprised at how pervasive they are. My mother's madness was like a rhizome root system -- no matter how carefully I try to root it out, shoots keep popping up in all sorts of places.
Anyway: it sounds like you feel demoralized. I know the feeling, if that's what it is. I'm sorry you're in this space. It is a hard place to be.
- BSD
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