Posted by wittgensteinz on February 21, 2009, at 4:46:52
In reply to Do the people in your life know..., posted by Recently on February 20, 2009, at 20:17:15
It's hard to be so alone with something so big.
My SO knows everything. I make sure my parents know as little as possible. They don't know I'm in therapy, taking meds, attempted suicide a second time (they did know about the first time because I was a student in my home-country at the time, so, to my dismay, they were contacted). I've had to think about the possibility that if I would die from this, they would then obviously find out some of the truth and I know they would give my SO hell.
Given how intrusive and controlling my mother is, it's in my best interests they don't know. As for others in my life - a small few know some details - actually interestly a couple of friends of my SO. Him telling them wasn't so bad and they have been very kind - one of his friends saved my life, so I'm grateful she knows. As for my own friends - NO - I wouldn't know how to bring it up and IRL I'm quite a private person, so it would be out of place for me to talk about something so personal. The weird thing is that I know far more about them than they know about me, and they never seem to notice/mind. I don't like having to lie about things to my friends though in order to cover up my 'secret' - I suppose that's why I shy away from probing questions about what exactly I do each day, what I was doing the last year - my answer is at best ominously empty.
Maybe I wish that I had an IRL 'therapy-buddy' (sorry for the corny expression) - someone who just 'knew' and could relate on a personal level.
Witti
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