Posted by rskontos on February 15, 2009, at 15:59:42
In reply to Re: Update » rskontos, posted by muffled on February 15, 2009, at 14:41:24
Muffled,
Nice to see you. Yeah, I have had some improvements, that is why this new job thing took me by surprise. My t thinks it has something to do with the change in our appointment time, (due to new job I can't go at my normal time) but I am not so sure. I don't see the correlation to that at all.I think it is because she, the co-worker, must remind parts of me of my mother. Her moodiness, her sullenness, and her resistance to talking. And then there are her dirty looks to people when she thinks no one is looking. I caught them when they were directed to me and to others. But now, I think that it is just something going on in her, menopause and an hormonal crisis that she thought her doctor would give her something but did not.
But in any case, thanks for saying I have done well. I am trying. I will say this last session was the best one for my t and I discussing my DID stuff. He was better at least it seems to me. I talked about how I thought this co-worker stirred up different parts of me, parts that due to therapy are so near the surface, and they are VERY emotional and I am just not used to dealing with all that. Because lets face it, I don't have many situations at home upsetting to me, or threatening to me because I avoid those situations. Being at work is bound to place me in situations where being triggered is more likely to happen and therapy is getting to the point where things are more deeper.
I am starting to flashback again. Like last night. I am having nightmares too. I woke my husband up screaming the other night but I couldn't tell him why. Still can't. I forgot to tell T about that.
Anyway, I am making progress. And yes you describe it well, chewing away at each other. That does nail down how it feels sometimes.
I need to listen more too. I have tried to block that out because I did not want to get into it all. But I think I need to now.
Yes things making sense would be a nice change.
Thanks
take care and come back more!
rsk
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