Posted by rskontos on February 13, 2009, at 16:21:46
In reply to Re: Update on pdoc and T (long/Sorry!), posted by antigua3 on February 13, 2009, at 7:14:37
> That scares me a lot, that something is very close. In one way, I don't want too much comforting from my T either because that tends to drive things inwardly as well.
***Antigua, I know. There is much I don't remember about the past too. I told my t/pdoc combo, that I am scared sometimes to remember it all. He reminded me I survived it once I will survive the remembering. He says I can also get well without remembering. So I am not obsessing about it now. And things I had to shut down because too much came too fast. Things are just now coming back in flashbacks and dreams. I understand the too much comfort. It seems your t might understand this already, I get the feeling.
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> I know it's there, but whether or not I will access it this time is another thing. Best not to push because it never works for me. It probably would be best for me to back off completely and not think about it at all, but my mind isn't letting me.No I think if we to remember we will no matter. And it is ok. we CAN handle it. We did once we can again. You are stronger now, with so much more support and fortitude. You have resources now you did not back then.
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> I had hoped that the ying/yang of my T/pdoc dynamic would have the effect that you mention. But I don't know anymore. But that could also be denial. He's a nicer guy than the role I've ascribed to him and maybe that will send this in a direction that won't work. I will work on this w/my T.It will have the effect when it is time. When you are ready and able to accept it. He will have a role too. P-docs, if he is anything like mine, seem to know when to push and when not too. Mine sure does. And when to bring out stuff that will encourage a deeper direction. So remember he will play an active role too. If you let him, or at least don't hinder.
Be open I guess. to let the ying/yang dynamic work. that is all.
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> Thanks for your thoughts,you are always most welcome as I welcome yours.
take care,
rsk
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