Posted by llurpsienoodle on December 19, 2008, at 10:43:38
In reply to Re: deceleration » llurpsienoodle, posted by B2chica on December 18, 2008, at 9:12:07
> we must be in sync Ll, as i'm hypomanic right now...well just saw pdoc tuesday. HE says hypomanic, i say hyperfunctioning! :)
Yeah, it's a fine line. I was functioning really well too. Able to work long hours, in good spirits, etc.
> i'm not dysphoric, i'm not paranoid, no psychosis...just plain happy. have energy. granted i'm not sleeping much these days. but i kinda like the shows on late at night so what's it hurting!!!!
I was waking early. What a pain the the patootie. Having to stay quiet so that H could get his beauty rest.
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> i'm SO SICK of being freggin depressed this is SUCH a welcome reprieve i'm going to ride it out and JUST enjoy it.
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Well, take care to notice and track this very carefully.> now i have become a bit irritible on a day or so, so i do need to monitor that. BUT otherwise i'm going to just enjoy it.
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> YOU TOTALLY deserve this too. so don't worry too much and just enjoy the reprieve! k?!
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> b2c.Well, it was starting to affect my school work a little bit. I was saying things that were uncharacteristically reckless. Too honest, too off the wall, too specific, too fast, leaping over necessary logical arguments to arrive at a non-sequiter, and my classmates would all look at me and either lol, or have this surprised look on their faces.
I was worried about making poor decisions, like blowing off committments, not taking enough time to get my work done, and other stoopid things. Being grumpy and short with my h.
So, I didn't want things to go downhill from there. Specifically, I didn't want to relapse into panicked anxiety with agitation. That's NOT a nice place to be.
Feeling better since the abilify. One side effect that is troubling is the utter lack of coordination when I'm on my feet. If I get up in the middle of the night to pee, I cannot make my way in a straight line. I end up kicking the door, listing 30 degrees to the side and missing (almost!) the toilet seat when I try to sit down on it. It's a little better during the day. But I work with kids, and you know that when you're interacting with a little one, you're on the floor-running-bending over-running-on the floor- hands and knees, picking up kid, etc.
My transitions are not so smooth.
Well, that's my little story. T noticed that I was speedy and worried that I was on the "up & up"
so, I guess I will try to stop this train before it jumps the track. so far so good.
-Ll
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