Posted by seldomseen on December 17, 2008, at 16:37:26
I just hate I get mad at him so much.
We've been talking and have identified why I get so mad at him
I think we are finally dealing with all these attachment fears and desires that I have for him.
It's tough stuff. Tough tough stuff.
The more I come to care for him, the scarier it gets for me, the more likely I am to get angry and hide.
He says it's so sad that the thing I seem to want the most, I am the most afraid of. I am truly afraid that he is just going to take it all away.
He then got very angry at my parents and suggested that I give them switches for Christmas. We both laughed. But deep down I appreciate his anger a lot.
I also appreciate the he is able to absorb whatever I seem to bring to therapy on any given day, whether it be rage, abject begging him not to leave me, or the desire to move in to his office. He seems to take it all in stride and understands that I'm working this out.
It's odd, but I am simultaneously as scared AND as well as I've ever been.
Ah therapy.
Seldom.
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