Posted by Toph on December 8, 2008, at 19:36:45
In reply to Re: Envy, posted by Toph on December 8, 2008, at 17:22:03
I even screw up leaving. My BP is controlled well by medication. I am so fortunate, imagine that, lucky for that. But I have terminal dysthymia. I'm not a mope though. I am as arrogant, opinionated, vain, selfish, letcherous, infantile, and mean as the rest. I just have this relentless sadness from some huge loss or injury that I can't remember ever suffering. I was a painfully sensitive boy who became a painfully neurotic adult. Everyone tells me I'm special but I have made it my life's purpose to make liars of them all. I share Dinah's guilt for I don't deserve to feel this way. Most of us here who like to associate with those similarly afflicted would be surprised at how normal we appear in real life. But I suppose we would be hard pressed to trade our demons for fear that others would have pain worse than our own.
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