Posted by muffled on December 8, 2008, at 15:51:53
In reply to Envy, posted by Toph on December 8, 2008, at 14:58:57
> I envy people who believe that they receive great benefit from therapy...
*I dunno, I have improved, but its taken a VERY VERY long time to achieve what I have....
> And I envy those who feel more whole by their faith, and those who see something attractive when they look in the mirror,*I'm kinda creepy looking and getting very fat. But I think my smile can be OK, not cuz I like it, but sometimes I will look someone in the eye and smile, and its just a wonderful thing. Happened this morning. He was a street person, and what a wonderful smile he had :-), I think maybe he thot mine was OK too.
I dunno what it is bout my faith, but somehow its there....>and those who are so certain that their political beliefs will improve the world, and those who lay down their heads and easily slip off to sleep at night, and those who don't need medication to stay out of the hospital,
*I too scattered to follow politics, sides, it just makes me nuts cuz they do stupid things as far as I know. I sleep well, I am thankful for that. I could sleep 12 hrs if I could. I have been on meds, and they did help. Currently I am fortunate to get by w/only xanax.
>and those who make a comfortable amount of money, and those whose intelligence is apparent to others,
*some days, I am dumb as a stump. Today I had NO clue, I mean NO clue at all where my sister had parked her car, as I was going to put parcels in it. She had to come with me to show me.
Other days, I astonish myself with my seeming intelligence....if only it would stay...
My H fortunately works. We are not rich, but I don't need much money. We certainly have all we need and then some really.>and those who look forward to going to work every day,
*one of the reasons I don't work, makes me anxious. However I will need to geta job probably next year...
>and those who don't blush or hate themselves when they make a mistake, and those who glide through life with ease and grace, and those who are responsible for having wonderful families and friends, and those who possess the courage to attempt things I find terrifying.
*I don't think ANYbody has all these things. I think all have some struggles. Some SEEM to have less, but one never knows...
I count myself in amongst the hugely blessed.
Which while wonderful, makes me wonder WTF my problem is, cuz with all my very many blessings, I should be able to do far better than I am...
Toph, you have written some amazing posts that I have read.
So obviously you can be kind.
You do have that to offer others.
I bet your face transforms when you smile.
And not knowing you, I don't know what other possibilities there might be.
It sounds very tough for you.
For that I am sorry.
I send you safe hugs if you would like them
(((Toph)))
M
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