Posted by vwoolf on November 19, 2008, at 13:54:39
Theres something about what she calls soothing, that makes me feel she doesnt understand. It feels as if shes just trying to make the feelings go away rather than allowing them to be, allowing a stillness, so that we can examine and understand them.
This is why I get so angry and suspicious when she assumes that tone of voice. Because I know it is an attempt to avoid the pain. And what I know I need, what I really want, is to go deeper into the pain. Not avoid it at all.
But I suspect she cant come there with me. I suspect she is afraid.
Does this mean I have outgrown her? Is that what this crisis is about? That she really cant go any further with me?
I feel quite desperate about it, but I fear it is true. I yearn for her care, but I know I have gone deeper than she can reach.
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