Posted by JayMac on November 14, 2008, at 18:42:56
Hey All,
I know I haven't posted that much lately. There have been a number of things going on. I've been in my mind a whole lot more than normal. With that said, my T and I have been through a WHOLE LOT lately. This past session, I think my T and I had a breakthrough. A couple weeks ago, I had a breakdown--some MAJOR transference going on. We worked through it, and we reconnected.
Yesterday, I was able to talk about things that I haven't mentioned before and didn't even think that I could tell her (in my mind, I thought her reaction would be too great for me to handle). Of course, she was welcoming and encouraging.
She and I have been joking around a whole lot more. In a way, we have been playing. She's actually said a whole lot more about herself in the past 3 sessions, than the past many months we've been together. It's been nice, it's been sweet. The other day, she went off on a tangent about her cell phone. It was funny! We laughed in a way that wouldn't have suggested we were doing therapy!
I feel like we are at a major turning point. I feel like we were at a stop light for a while, and, although it was a yellow stop light, I wanted to yield and come to a complete stop. We recently came to a holting stop. Now, I feel like it's turned green and we are flying and it's great!
I've recently imagined what it would be like to go on an 8 hour drive with her: What I would feel, how she would act outside her office, when would there be awkward silences, what music (if any) we would listen to, what we would talk about, and much more.
We are completely reconnected, attached, secure, and it's nice.
This is not to suggest we will never disconnect again, it's just to say that I was able to reconnect in a way that I have rarely (if ever) experienced before.
Have any of you experienced a turning point in your therapy? I'm curious what it was like, for you, individually. Thoughts? Feelings? Meanings?
Hugs to you all!!!
Thanks! =)
JayMac
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