Posted by Partlycloudy on November 11, 2008, at 15:55:27
Waiting for my medication changes to take hold.... :-(
I put the CSA book aside for now.
Enjoyed what the yoga class could give me.
Am grasping for whatever sleep I can get - Ambien CR might work if it could overcome my anxieties - but they are just about 24-hour. I've timed it now so I take my last dose of Xanax of the day at my bedtime, which seems to relax me enough to GET to sleep. And I'm using my guided meditation CDs to help me get there - haven't failed me yet. Sometimes, though, I seem to be in some kind of no-where-land, not quite asleep, and too tired to keep my eyes open. Exhausted yet not able to lose consciousness. It affects my every function of living, this not sleeping properly.The anxiety is still at a peak, I've never experienced anything like this since I was a teen. Xanax doesn't seem to be making much of a dent in it, and I'm just trying to ride this through.
Still quite miserable. Glad I'm not working through the CSA book, but now I feel kind of stranded in this no man's lands of paralyzing fear and anxiety. Nothing to pull me out of it nor push me... I mostly quake. There's nobody there to "get" me, yet that's what my body is ready and waiting for. This totally sucks.
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