Posted by happyflower on November 4, 2008, at 18:32:31
In reply to Haha! I showed up at the wrong time! lol, posted by happyflower on November 4, 2008, at 13:51:01
My session was so hard today. I talked about losing my friend to a drunk driver. It seems like I can't count on anyone, they either die, abuse me, or don't understand me so they reject me. :( Sometimes I wonder if I am a hopeless case. I am seeing way too many ways I am so f*ck*d up, it seems insurmountable to overcome. She knows I just want to hide from everyone. I don't like men looking at me, I say the opposite of what i really feel. I am not feeling very confident right now, sometimes I just want to shrink away from everything.
She said as I was leaving that we were going to work on some of my issues but I got the impression by the way she said it and her facial expressions, she thinks I have had so many bad things happen to me, that I need a lot of work.
Yeah.
Life sucks a lot for me, why do I keep holding on? I don't mean to sound sorry for myself, but I am so sad right now. I am not sure if I am ever going to heal the damage.
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