Posted by LadyBug on November 4, 2008, at 12:30:05
In reply to Re: Going to see my T tonight~ » LadyBug, posted by Dinah on November 4, 2008, at 12:01:28
Dinah,
You could have not written a better response to me. It gives me peace and some hope. You are right, she gave me "my" time to come in and see her.Did her retirement get in her way of dealing with me? She knew a long time ago about her retirement and maybe she was frustrated with me knowing that when she retired I'd be on my own. After 11 years should I have been standing on my own more than I was? I was in a pretty rough place in my life at that time and admit I was dealt more than I could handle at one time. I did lose my strength. I had no one there for me at the time and my wish was for her to be there more than she could possibly be.
Oh, how I want to be able to bring into the room the positive regard I know we had for each other. This is my greatest wish. Our work is done, there is no way around that now. I regret not getting the kind of termination I should have gotten. I think a good termination is as important as the work itself. I would feel peace and I imagine it being a wonderful experience. Instead, I am left to sort through much on my own.
It's ok, I've been through a lot of grieving this year and it can't be any more painful than what I've already been through. I'm on the healing side of things.
Thanks for your support. I'm going to take the positive things you said and think positive all day and take it in the room with me when I see my T tonight.
LadyBug
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