Posted by Dinah on October 17, 2008, at 22:14:57
In reply to Re: I'm not sure what to do, posted by muffled on October 17, 2008, at 20:25:55
I think the reason he's so excited is that I brought in these two posts.
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20081005/msgs/857540.html
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20081005/msgs/857545.html
He said that for the first time, he had an ah-hah experience about my fear. It all made sense to him, which it hadn't really before. It had never made sense to him that this all could have stemmed from something that happened past my tenth birthday. I'm not sure why. Is there some literature that says that serious effects can only come from trauma before age ten?The person I very briefly consulted about my dissociation said that it seemed totally reasonable to her that the thorazine they gave me for my terror over the whole vomiting thing (though they didn't actually believe me at the time) coupled with the actual trauma could have accounted for the dissociation. Apparently it was a reasonably heavy dose. Although I managed to function well at school... I don't know. I only have bits and pieces of my pediatric record. But I think I was on 50-100 mg of thorazine each night for that time.
I have to admit I'm a bit hurt that he would apparently think that integration would be a good outcome. Not that he said so. He said something vague about not knowing where it would go. But he looked too happy. :(
I thought he liked me just as I am.
poster:Dinah
thread:857976
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20081005/msgs/858023.html