Posted by lemonaide on October 16, 2008, at 20:44:47
With my first T, I wanted to know everything, the 2nd I told him I didn't want to know anything, but he still disclosed a lot anyway.
My woman T (who's name is Crystal,isn't that cool?) is holding strong boundries with me, I only know limited stuff from her website. She asked me today how I felt about that, and I said very good. She told me today that I am a very intelligent, very perceptive and a very intuitive person. It is weird hearing that, it certainly isn't something I have grown up with. She said my intuitiveness is a curse and a blessing. But she believes in intuition. I truly believe it was kept me alive as a child, my old T said that I used my intelligence to help myself from getting into more trouble with my mom's jealously. I did stuff like make my grades appear worse on my report card than they really were, I hid my solo medals from band, I did everything to make myself seem less of a person that to her, so she would not beat me. The jealousy even continued into adulthood. She even fell in love with my husband and tried to dress like me so she could attract him when I was in my business suits, high heals, hair and nails, etc. for work.
Well today I told her how my termination went with T 2 (old man). I told him that I respect the good work he does. He said really needed to hear that today of all days because he was having a really hard time. He has a client in the hospital who he visits every morning instead of doing his workout. Plus the hospital was giving him grief for something about him caring too much about his client.
When I told lady T this, she said wow, he told you all that. I said yes, we have a very open relationship. She said it is almost like I am taking care of him instead of him taking care of me because I told him he needed to take care of himself first, so he can help others better. She said that she knows I had a good relationship with him, and he wasn't abusive like my 1st T, but he was also disclosing too much.
I do agree because I know how hard he suffers seeing patients in pain, and i didn't want to do that with him because I am worried about his health, etc. But I told her I didn't regret what he did because what I learned was so valuable in personal and professional life.
And you notice I say patients now? Well I feel we are seeing T's for mental health and in a way they are healing us just like a regular doctor would. So to me now saying I am a patient makes more sense, it puts the relationship in better perspective. Mental health isn't like seeing a lawyer, our insurance doesn't cover lawyer fee's, so to me mental health = physical health in the aspect of them helping us heal.
Lady T is also dealing with my women issues, she is actually a feminist she says. Well I said that I feel different than most women. I hate to shop for clothes and shoes. I would rather go to a plant store any day or antiques. I have never been a girly girl. I asked her if my perception of women being more emotional and catty was a mis perspective formed my by childhood. She said no, actually women are like that, almost like they are in competition with each other. She said not all women are, but a lot do have those traits.
She asked me how I got along with teachers growing up, well I was always the class pet, they always seemed to be caring towards me. Maybe because I was the smallest kid? I don't know. But I feel my grand ma and my teachers saved me from being a child who was totally unloved and cared for.
So I guess that therapy is so different, she asks a lot of questions. Only ends the session with a few thoughts about what we talked about. I am very open with her, and she is going to continue to ask me how our relationship is going for me. I told her I am almost too open sometimes, but I would tell her if she asked. I said if she was being PMSy, I would ask her, what you on the rag or something. It was just a joke, she laughed, but said she probably wouldn't tell me. I said good!
poster:lemonaide
thread:857848
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