Posted by JayMac on October 11, 2008, at 18:25:52
I just need to vent a little bit:
Whenever something happens to disrupt a relationship, I just want to completely end it. I just want to be done with them. For example, if I have an argument with someone, no matter who is right/wrong or to blame it's almost like I would rather not have them in my life, than have them in my life and have a disruption. I have such a difficult time with ANYTHING that disrupts the connection that I have with people. This happens in all my intimate relationships (family, friends, boyfriend, T), but it makes things hard.
I know that the other person may not mean to hurt me, but it's so hard to deal with the hurt and the pain that I would rather not have known them at all. I also hate knowning that I have caused someone else pain.
I basically would rather not have anyone than to have someone and have them hurt me and me hurt them.
I know that sounds messed, but whatever I'm having a bad day.
poster:JayMac
thread:856969
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