Posted by Dinah on October 10, 2008, at 17:27:00
Because I didn't want to contaminate this by associating it with the other.
I told my therapist I had longed for days to come to his office and curl up by his feet and lean my head against my knees. I've used this imagery before, so it's not unfamiliar to him. A while later I asked if he would mind if I did that. He smiled and said no, if I wanted to do that it would be fine.
And of course I didn't. I told him the logistics would be difficult and the awkwardness might mess up a very reassuring fantasy.
I'm pretty sure he knew that this would be the result. He smiled and gravely responded that that would be an issue.
He knows me so very well. He didn't mess up the fantasy or make me want it more by refusing me. He just made it an even more safe and reassuring fantasy.
It might have been fun to start to sit on the floor though, to see what he did. lol.
Hmmm... this time I might be a bit shocked with myself for putting him on the spot like that. That was a very forward thing for me to do, to move from expressing the desire to asking if he'd mind if I did it. That must have just blurted out because I generally make sure I don't trespass.
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