Posted by Dinah on September 22, 2008, at 18:13:20
In reply to Re: I'm never going to be well » Dinah, posted by Partlycloudy on September 22, 2008, at 17:47:34
I think my body is doing its best to hammer the point home with me. :(
I'd *like* to think that I can do anything, if I just try hard enough.
I have this mental picture of my nervous system as a bunch of electrical cords getting more and more frayed as time goes on causing little explosions and fires.
The hard part is that I don't know what's best to do. Is the Provigil making it worse or keeping me functional? Or both? Do the meds I take for psych purposes have a long term negative effect? Am I only thinking that I know how to relax? Should I take more meds so that any kindling effect is minimized? I know therapy helps keep me on even keel, and I know how to take meds prn to keep as stable as possible, and I know how to be careful of my environment. What do you do when all that isn't enough?
Sometimes I start wondering if this is somehow related to seizures. There is a strange resemblance (at least to my limited knowledge based entirely on doggie seizures) to migraines with aura, and to cataplexy. Then there's my shame attacks. Or maybe they're all related to migraines?
Argh. My sleep neurologist thinks I have a very interesting case. Just what I need. I'm interesting to a neurologist who is past middle age and has been doing this forever.
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