Posted by Dinah on September 22, 2008, at 14:16:09
On one level I know this. It's why I assume therapy is forever. I'm not working through trauma. I have a frayed and overreactive nervous system. Migraines, IBS, the new lovely tinnitis, etc etc.
Plus I just discovered that cataplexy doesn't come without narcolepsy. Which explains why my first sleep neurologist insisted I had narcolepsy even though the sleep studies didn't really show it, and even though the DNA test indicated I didn't. I wonder if they're wrong about the link?
So now I'm left wondering if my involuntary naps are dissociative tendencies, or a neurological problem. Both can be triggered by emotion, so... I dunno.
It was forcibly brought to my attention yesterday. I had an exciting morning, but all went well and I was feeling pretty darn good. Then a couple of hours later - Pow! I all of a sudden felt like I'd stuck my finger in an outlet. Or eaten a few dozen caffeine tablets. Ear ringing, general buzziness, extreme sensitivity to stimuli. And at the same time the overwhelming urge to sleep came over me. Sure enough, after about a half hour involuntary nap, a risperdal, and a frova I felt more or less ok.
I should have never been allowed to reproduce. The ability to feel a pea under twenty innerspring mattresses does not offset the cost.
And again I'm reminded why I keep my life still and peaceful. Because even with the skills I've developed over the years in relaxation, I still have to attend to my environment and keep my emotional waters as unruffled as possible. Hence the therapy.
I wasn't really kidding about the DSM diagnosis. All the positive thinking in the world (and many of you probably know me as an annoyingly positive thinker at times) won't offset the physiological *^&*@#.
poster:Dinah
thread:853449
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