Posted by TherapyGirl on September 16, 2008, at 18:14:29
In reply to Have you ever told your therapist... (trigger), posted by DAisym on September 15, 2008, at 21:15:13
What I've said, on more than one occasion, is F*ck you. I'm not proud of it, but at the time I meant it and I was furious with her.
I also, during the lost year (the horrible, suicidal depression that lasted a full year), went to a session, sat there furious for I don't remember how long, then got up, said, "This isn't helping," and walked out. I did send her a letter after that to explain that I didn't mean to do it in such an angry way, but that I think it's impossible for me to do therapy when I'm that depressed. You need some minimal level of hopefulness to really do the work of therapy and I had none.
Mostly, she handled it well. Occasionally, she has been angry with me, but not in any way that scared me. She teared up when I left the session abruptly during the depression and asked me not to leave. I think she was afraid I was going to die. I thought I was, too.
We're still hanging in there with each other after all these years and I miss her like crazy (4.5 weeks into her 7-ish-week leave). I think your T will be hanging in there with you, too.
(((((((Daisy))))))))
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