Posted by Dinah on August 21, 2008, at 14:21:33
In reply to Re: OT rhinitis, posted by Nadezda on August 21, 2008, at 13:56:47
I'm not worried enough about the deadlines. I need to worry more.
I do think the trust that he cares about me is very new. I am enjoying it. I break up my therapy into chunks of time based on trust. The first five years I learned to trust him, then there was a big leap of faith at five years. In the second five years, I learned to trust the trust, if that makes sense, and it was another big leap. Then everything got messed up because of Katrina and the delving into deeper levels we were starting was aborted, and maybe that moment will never return. Now I really really trust that he cares about me, which might not have happened without Katrina. But I recognize clearly that he still will probably terminate me some day because of something in his own life. I'm not quite sure how I reconcile all of that. Or maybe I don't need to. Maybe I've given up the need to reconcile. Which would be a big jump too.
How was your trip? Was it nice enough you'd consider repeating it? :)
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