Posted by raisinb on June 30, 2008, at 13:49:51
In reply to I have a problem in therapy..., posted by Lucie Lu on June 30, 2008, at 11:12:40
I've had the same problem in therapy for three years--sometimes, I experience her as warm and loving--at others, she seems to be just going through the motions at best.
Without knowing your T, I think there are probably a couple of things going on. He's probably more present and warm some days. Added to that, you're extremely vulnerable when you go in, so every little detail, every shift in tone, becomes magnified. Plus, as you've detailed (very eloquently, I might add), you have a very strong internal conflict. Though you want to believe he cares, you also can't and keep demanding more proof.
I think it's positive that you've identified this challenging, mistrustful part as something you don't want as part of you. That shows a lot of progress. I don't have any amazing insights. I think it just takes time, working together, more and more work, until you get through things.
On the other hand, if you figure out a quick fix, let me know :)
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