Posted by B2chica on May 8, 2008, at 9:24:46
In reply to Re: woohoo! good to hear you're doing well » raisinb, posted by muffled on May 7, 2008, at 15:11:52
oooh muffly, i miss you.
and that's one thing i need to keep remembering. is that God did not give me more than i can handle. i thank GOd he gave me bipolar in stead of only depression because i don't think i could handle only depression. he gave me bipolar so that i have repreves. and i need to remember that (like you say).
and i took little one to park the day before yesterday and it has a big lake there. we walked along the beach part. but it reminded me how much i MISS the ocean. i was born in southern california. and although we only lived there till i was 5. i feel like a 'water baby'. i feel i have the ocean in my soul. like we were separated untimely. and i miss her so much. i literally feel her powerful waves wash over me at times almost rejuvinating me and hear the powerful crash waves. and sometimes, sometimes muffled if i'm REALLY lucky on a warm summer day i can catch a drift of cool air that i Swear smells of salt as if i'm walking along a hot day and catch a drift of cool breeze coming off the sea.
i miss her.on the other hand, i think that i don't live near because of what i've gone through these last few years. i feel that i would have succumbed to her powers and would have used her beauty for something tragic.
so what keeps my heart going is that i will visit her again. maybe when little one is old enough to remember vacations.
could you do me a favor muffled. go to the ocean some day soon and take off your socks and shoes stand in the tide and just stare out at the sea. let the salt breeze blow strong through your hair and smile, think of me smile with your teeth and put your head back with the sun shining on your face. think of how much i love her and tell her i miss her.
thank you if you can.
b2c.> Good job B2, hang in there and remember its good and bad. There's gonna be good times, and bad times, and everything in btwn.
> Try and remember how it feels to feel OK.
> The tide goes in and out.
> (I live near ocean!)
> I am happy for you B2.
> Here if you ever wanto babble.
> :-)
> M
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