Posted by llurpsienoodle on April 2, 2008, at 19:28:04
In reply to Well, I went in flustered, posted by llurpsieNoodle on April 2, 2008, at 17:51:04
I told T towards the end of the session "I may look all together here [gesturing towards my body] but inside I'm a mess"
"Oh? How are you a mess. What does a mess look like to you?"
[silence]
"What does a mess FEEL like to you?"
tears and more silence. At this point I've got this gnawing terror in my belly. it is growing more and more desperate by the second.
"I don't think there's anything in there that you cannot deal with"
"but I'm scared to go there. What if there's something I can't handle in there?"
"It's like the boogeyman- it's only scary because it feels unknown. once you turn the light on it won't be scary anymore"
"but it's still terrifying"
"next week we'll talk more about the boogeyman- see, you thought that this would be a wasted session. turned out to be pretty interesting afterall. There were even some tears. (I shot him a withering look at this point)" "I HATE crying". at which point he looked amused.
-Ll
he said he likes me, looks forward to sessions with me.
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