Posted by Quintal on March 18, 2008, at 18:10:25
In reply to Re: 'Bipolar Disorder' vs. 'Manic Depressive Insan » Quintal, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on March 17, 2008, at 3:12:22
>. However, your imagination is character-consistent regarding food. I would be the one on psychobabble to recommend the udon dish and accompanying satay. That is accurate with the spirit of my character. Although I have never done so in the past. BTW chicken and pork satay taste better than beef.
Most of my delusions were eerily charcater-consistent. Which is why they were so believable I suppose. My doctor appeared to me as a power-mad serial killer and I still have to rely on her for treatment. I will bear the food advice in mind and may order a chicken satay tomorrow night. So far I have only tried beef.
>buddha wasn't there with you. he's on my shelf eating an orange and drinking water.
I was kinda hoping he could be in two places at the same time.
>since I've added wellbutrin the dreams and imaginings are more vivid and detailed. They are compelling :( Something to talk about with T. He often says something like "It sounds like you're on a bad acid trip" but we both know that my neurotransmitters were virginal prior to seeing my first pdoc.
I saw your post below and understand compeltely why you wanted oblivion. Did it myself with 20mg Klonopin/tramadol a few times and passed out. Fortunately benzos are pretty forgiving od-wise. Maybe Zyprexa's a better option, but not as relaxing IMO.
>please post if you feel it would help. I will read. I've been there myself. Asking everyday... Can I leave now. Can I leave now? NOW? response is a placid smile. No honey the pdocs want you stabilized. So I pretended to "stabilize" haha. little did they know.
There was a running theme where I'd ask "When can I go home?" and they'd say they don't know. They didn't know who knew. They didn't know anyone who might know anything about the person who knew. They didn't really care I suppose. People are just warehoused - fed, watered, medicated and 'monitored'. It would be better if they had counsellors or psychologists on the ward, but all you get is a weekly visit from the pdoc where he adjusts your medication. There's no-one to talk to and the nurses walk around all day obsessively locking and unlocking doors like jail wardens. At times I found myself thinking "If I don't get out of here soon I'll go mad", which begged the question of what madness really is and what would happen if I were to 'mad'. Puzzling.
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