Posted by seldomseen on March 18, 2008, at 8:04:05
In reply to What's wrong with me?, posted by Kahlee on March 18, 2008, at 7:06:46
I'm so sorry that you are hurting. Depression is a very insidious disease, one that I certainly have a lot of experience in managing.
I don't think you will be attacked here for not wanting to confront your abuser. I mean - who does? That's a very very personal decision. In fact, I don't think you will be attacked here at all.
I do think there is a lot of merit in reaching out and letting people help you with this.
I think the burden that you carry from the abuse doesn't have to be yours to carry all by yourself. It's a complicated issue that's for sure, but for me, keeping quiet was just as damaging as the abuse itself. I learned that there is a big difference between getting help and going public.I've never confronted my abusers, but the shame and fear they left me with is not mine to carry anymore.
Have you considered therapy and/or medication as a possible mechanism for relief? Do you think it would fit for you?
How do you think your husband would react if you told him?
It seems as though you are way ahead of the curve already in that you recognize a pattern in your behavior and have identified the trauma that is mostly likely causing it.
I see a lot of hope in your situation. I also really respect your desire for change on your own terms and in your own time frame.
Peace to you
Seldom
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