Posted by rskontos on March 17, 2008, at 19:12:05
In reply to Re: Sorry, all I thought in my opening post.. » rskontos, posted by ClearSkies on March 17, 2008, at 17:00:59
Well, to start with ClearSkies, my therapist knew something about Babble because I found him through my links with Babble. He knew this. So he knew vaguely about Babble. I told him I often come him when I can't work out things he says in therapy, I told him it helps to speak to others like me, with DID, and he said it would be very helpful. He has not discouraged me. He listened, asked alot of questions. Asked questions about Dr. Bob. I told him I felted wounded too by Dr. Bob silence. He treated my feelings with respect. He validated how i felt. I said I often work things out here and then come back and talk it out with him. We discussed how this is a type of group therapy. He never has said don't go there. He let me vent my frustrations (actually I was MAD in a big way) and I felt better afterwards. He understood how I felt about not getting a response to direct questions. How I felt let down. And it was a point of I ask a question I expect an answer.
We did not talk about it today. Today he focused on me needed to so something with my life :( He thinks I need to focus on something which has been an ongoing theme. I got very angry today, some of which was frustration from here, and some from family--it just all came out. He said if I had more to focus my energies on I would not look for it elsewhere. Duh. I thought. I appreciate how highly he thinks of me. But I think he thinks more of me than I do. I sometimes wonder if we see the same person when we look in the mirror. Anyway, this off the subject. I am very direct with him these days. Although about the DID thing I am not. Funny huh. The thing he specializes in I avoid. I did not tell him of a new thing that happened as I am not sure about it myself. So I wait. And I think. He says I spend too much time in my head anyway.
I will bring up the Babble thing again I think. I am not sure. I must thank you though. In thinking about this post, I have made a discovery about my relationship with him too. This is good. I am not sure I would have thought about this if I did not think about the answer for you. hmmm.
thanks CS I hope I answered your question.rsk
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