Posted by rskontos on February 28, 2008, at 10:42:11
In reply to Re: You know the question I dislike......, posted by Daisym on February 28, 2008, at 0:06:42
Daisym, you are so right they do watch too much tv. I mean I know I have alot to be thankful for. And I am thankful. I don't have to worry about certain things others do. I am grateful for that. But that doesn't change what happened to me that like you said imploded things and I am having a hard time getting back up.
Like this morning I had the most vivid flashback to date (this one was like in the movies). Involving the three people involved with the most hurt in my life. I endedflashback before it showed everything to me as I was terrified, it was an automatic reaction. I did this automatically before the rational part of me talked myself down and into a safe place. I almost did not come out of it. I believe it will reach a point where I can't end it it will just unfold. I want to say I am ok with that but I am just not sure. The terror I felt is huge. I think I am ready to deal with it. Dr. S is out of town. But he said call me if you need me, I will call back. It will take just a little time but call back I will. So don't hesitate. I said it would have to be bad for me to do that. He said like I said call me if you need me. I guess he knows it is getting to the point I can't stop the flashbacks anymore. And to think my BIL what do you have to be depressed about. ****, that is me shaking my head.
That is nice how your secretary picked up on it and just quietly supported you.:)Thanks so much for your support too :)
rsk
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