Posted by muffled on January 21, 2008, at 14:14:41
In reply to These my last 2 mails to T....mutant...., posted by muffled on January 21, 2008, at 13:05:51
So, I read respomses....and I dunno, I dunno.
Sh*t, I wanto go, I DON'T want to go and I DON'T KNOW why. And its not like its proly some mysterious deep thing. I dunno.
Mebbe its cuz I think I triggered T last time w/my 'slip' and I slip again,and nothing went wrong, but I don't wanna trigger her again. So I don't wanna tell her, but I GOTO be honest or why bother? Honest is cornerstone of our relationship. And I KNOW its HER stuff, and I DID ask bout that she seemed triggered but she said it was just out of concern for me. That she WASN'T triggered. But I don't beleive her. Bad eh?
Hmmm.Mebbe answered my own question......
Crap.
But I STILL dunno WTF to do...
Maybe bail and just write it in an email, cuz I KNOW face to face I'll just choke...
Aaaarrrggghhh.
Had some sad stuff to hear bout friends and family. Health stuff :-( I am so fortunate, I kinda wrecked but better off than SO many.
Sometimes I hate myself.
M
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