Posted by llurpsienoodle on January 20, 2008, at 20:39:53
I have to bring in some CBT things I've been working on to therapy. T hasn't assigned me anything, and he's never given me any formal assessment for anxiety/depression/awesomeness, etc.
Now I have to bring in my journal in which I record feelings | intensity | automatic thoughts | cognitive biases/distortions | responses to automatic thoughts | change in emotion or intensity
yikes. this feels like it's gonna be hard to do. I'm really mean to myself most of the time, and T is going to read my automatic thoughts like "I hate myself" "I am the stupidest person in the world" "I'm going to get fired for messing up at work" "I'm not good enough to _____" etc.
If I tell T about my self-reproaching automatic thoughts, will he be horrified? What if I haven't talked about it ever? Will he be upset that I haven't let him know how bad my anxiety is?
Anxiety usually peaks during the hour before I have to leave the house for anything- meeting a friend, driving to work, driving to the store, driving to therapy. I know I'm not a happy driver. I am a safe, competent driver- no accidents or tickets, but I don't find it pleasureable. Oddly enough, once I'm on the road, I feel good, even joyous on occasion (!)
sorry for rambling. I guess I just have anxiety about dumb things like being a dumb llurpsienoodle
-Ll
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