Posted by sunnydays on January 19, 2008, at 12:47:49
In reply to Re: he cancelled to Sunny and Dinah » sunnydays, posted by Dinah on January 18, 2008, at 22:12:44
Thanks for your support everyone. I am feeling increasingly hurt by reading other posts on this site, so I don't know if I'm going to be around as much. Unfortunately, I'm addicted, so I'm sure as soon as I say that I'll be around as much as I always am. I just feel like it's not safe for me to share how I feel and how much I am struggling with my attachment issues and my relationship with my therapist because I am afraid of being criticized for it. Or indirectly criticized for it, even just from inferring things from other unrelated posts that hurt me.
I feel like I have a healthy relationship with my T that allows me to grow and change. And it hurts sometimes, but that's all part of the process I think when you have attachment issues. And I just have to keep struggling through it and talking about it with him. I just feel like lately that it's not safe here to struggle with that approach. It may all be in my head, but my head is pretty good at coming up with criticism by itself so that I think I need to protect myself and not read so much that might cause me to be able to think up even more criticisms.
This is really hard for me, because I am struggling with my T being out, and this is usually a safe place I turn to for support. I just feel like it's less safe now. I know the character of the site ebbs and flows based on who's posting, so I'll be around, just hopefully not as much if I can manage it (which I'm not sure I even can).
sunnydays
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