Posted by muffled on December 29, 2007, at 19:13:37
In reply to Re: and you know whats worse? ** abuse trigger ** » muffled, posted by star008 on December 25, 2007, at 19:21:03
> you know i was reading waht you wrote and i had to red it twice to make sure i didn't write it.. i feel like a drama queen too..like i am making stuff up.
*Mebbe you are like me. Cuz of parts.
I just posted as how I STILL can deny, even as I gaze at words I wrote that say otherwise, rather plainly so. I still deny. There is a part that SO strongly denies. Its bizarre to that part all this SA stuff. Its bizarre to me that that part denies....
> my sister doesn't remember anything.. she doesn't even remember most of her childhood.. we talk about things and she doesn't have any memory of even simple things. i remember abuse but not abuse she was in. Buti don't remember the early that my Ikid feels.. I don't remember that at all.. it's like i feel it but I have no idea what it is.. yep,, just like you.. like did anythng happen at all or is all in my twisted mind??*sigh, not to bug you, don't answer if this is triggery.
I am the same in that I remember very little of childhood. My sisters do, but I don't. They don't have anything too bad to say. But at least one sibling(the one next to me) has 'issues' for sure, but she denies anything bad as well....
Yeah, I think its called implicit memory or something. Its not got words. It could be that it was pre verbal for the child. It could be just how the memory was stored in your brain. It might have been broken up for storage cuz it was just too hard for the child to deal with all of it at once.
I guess....I should listen to myself...
But I guess we do goto trust what our bodies feel, and what little info those young kids send us...
I guess...
I am thinking more and more that we gonna have to deal specifically with them kids....
Take care,
M
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