Posted by lovelorn on December 14, 2007, at 19:25:54
In reply to Re: Healing versus Curing » lovelorn, posted by seldomseen on December 14, 2007, at 15:09:12
>To be honest, even after all the years, the same old pain of what happened to me as a child is still very much there. I think I will carry it with me until the day I die. It's as much a part of me as my bones are. It hasn't been replaced anymore than I could replace my spine.
Yes, I know what you mean. I did mention to my T that I don't think some part, at least, can ever be completely healed.
>However, how I feel ABOUT the pain is somewhat different than it used to be. It is what it is and doesn't require much reaction from me anymore.
This is good. I am not there yet. As I mentioned to my T on Wednesday, I have basically been a wreck for the past two years dealing with this. I am still all reaction to it. I am noticing ever so recently though that reaction is changing, requiring less from me as I continue to work on it.
>I think what I've done is created a new life - a good life (usually) for myself in which I can thrive. I did it on top of, around, under and through the pain.
Hmmm. I am at the stage now of giving thought to what I want to create as a good life, post breakdown and dealing with this for two years now. I like how you said: on top of, around, under and through the pain. I have been dealing with all those places, especially the 'through' part since I've started therapy.
Thanks for the added thoughts.
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