Posted by Bodhisattva on December 14, 2007, at 15:32:27
In reply to Re: Umm, stuff that I'm ashamed of., posted by TF on December 14, 2007, at 13:39:58
Time for an old fashioned experiment.
You've seen people's behavior around you as you are normally, or at least I assume you normally shower/bathe. Anyhow, This is the control group, you've noticed things about them that have created this belief.
Now for the experiment group. I assume you see at least some of the same people everyday. Next time you are to be in their presence, eat beans. I mean just gorge yourself on the things, eat all the beans you can and anything else that just makes you disgustingly bloated. Then, go hang with your buddies. In the midst of doing whatever it is you happen to be doing, preferably in a closed space, bear down and let loose a monster of a f*rt. Go ahead man, sh*t your pants, this is for the sake of science! Then observe.
The wrinkled noses, the "OH MY GOD", the vomiting, the breaking of windows to escape. Those are very clear signs that you do not usually smell.
However, if nobody moves. Well buddy, you smell like a steaming fresh pile of dung.
I've stopped in the middle of the mall to turn to someone with particular funk and announce it to them. I assure you there are other people with the brutal honesty I've been gifted/cursed with. After that experiment you'll know with certainty that you either stink or you smell like everybody else.
On the other hand, if you're still sniffing your own arm-pits after someone looks at you funny then you'll know you're crazy.
Mostly, it sounds like you are a very thoughtful person who is attentive to the states of existence of those around you. You also have an extreme attention to detail, which is another quality to admire. Both of which can be used to surmount any endeavor you choose to pursue in life.
I hope my anecdotal experiment helps you realize that your fear originates with the desire to avoid failure in being a part of other peoples lives.
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