Posted by rskontos on December 6, 2007, at 8:57:26
In reply to Re: VENT**hosp/cop violence ***TRIGGER**, posted by star008 on December 5, 2007, at 21:37:59
OK, I am with Star, did this hosp/cop violence just happen? Both can cause scars muffy. The child stuff a child usually buries. I don't remember any of mine. Yet my sister does. My mother was bad and neglect and never their for us. She didn't cuddle us or hug us or tell us she loved us, or hold us, no none of that we didn't get and our father he didn't either no he told me he didn't want children and he didn't believe we were his children. Lovely man he is....I don't remember this at all. I was told this as an adult and it hurts. But it hurts different. I have had cops at my house as a adult too. But I remember it but it is still trauma. My 15 year old son and I are having problem trauma to me cause I don't know how to deal with it. All my peeps are worried and they keep me in an emotional roller coaster more trauma I want to hide, it should just be normal parental problems but for me it is huge. And no mom or dad to just laugh with me and say oh he is just a teenager he will be fine. I understand how hard this is for you. WE dont know how to handle the conflict in our lives cause we were not given a solid foundation like other people. We have to try and build our own :( and it is hard and it hurts and it sucks. I am sorry.
If you just went through something else again I am so sorry you are hurting again. I too did that I thought about finding as many pills in my house that I might take to see if I could just end it all cause it is getting too hard. I didnt but I was seriously thinking about. It is so hard to get these thoughts out and move forward.
You had such a good session in your Therapy and you review how much progress you made.
Please let me know how you are today. And if this is something you are remembering or new. Either way I know you are in pain and I am truly sorry. Take care muffy. You are special.
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rsk
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