Posted by Poet on November 30, 2007, at 9:50:50
My T noticed it so I guess it shows outside as well as inside. I told her I was a failure for the first time in a very long time. Yes, I have a job, that puts me ahead of where I was last year at this time, but it is not where I envisioned myself to be at this age. I am not making the money I need to be making to contribute to the household.
Plus my husband said he'd like to go back to school- a two year program which means he'd be working less hours. He said "maybe when you get that high paying job." He was serious, I finished my classes in July and did apply for one job, but didn't get an interview. Frankly, I am scared to apply because as many of you know I can't handle rejection and have a long history of not getting hired. And getting fired or having mental meltdowns and being forced to quit. Hence why I am more depressed than usual.
Christmas isn't helping as it means more time with my family. I just want to go to sleep and wake up January 1st. I don't know what year, 2008 might be too soon.
Poet
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