Posted by star008 on November 24, 2007, at 4:14:07
Ramblings at 530 am and really I am not totally insane.. I just don't sleep. I wish we were all together cuz I don't think anyone else understands. I work in a hospital and have seen many suicides. They call me to ER when someone comes in. It is my job to keep them breathing.
I saw an 18 year old with marks still around his neck.. He hung himself in the basement.. I kept him breathing but he was dead. I saw a 60 year old.. Same thing Kept her breathing but she was dead..so many more of them..the families cry and talk about selfishness. Don't they understand the constant pain that some people can't indure anymore? The staff make jokes(to make themselves feel better, to separate)? They talk about selfishness and "attention seeking".. I try to tell them that a suicide attept is an awful extreme form of attention getting. I try to tell them that some people have such painful lives. Is it that they just don't get it?? Do "normal" people never have these thoughts?? Sometimes they make fun of people who have died through suicide. All I can do is bite my tongue and try to tell them that some people hurt so much.. they don't get it or don't want to see it?? Is it something that people living their "normal lives" don't want to see?? It is just all so awful to me.. I know how these people feel.. The ones who can't go on and I can't do anything to change the way people feel about them.Is this too much?? You can delete it if it is but it is reality.. So sad..I live it.. I see it
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