Posted by rskontos on November 7, 2007, at 14:43:29
In reply to My T DON'T run?!!! I need babble...**triggery**, posted by Muffled on November 7, 2007, at 14:17:44
Muffled it is not filth. It is something that happened to you that you couldn't control. I understand how you feel because I feel the same way. The nothingness is a way to control the horror you have been through. The numbness is a way to be safe again. That is all. To share it with her is a honor and it is the only way to make yourself better. I understand my T said she was so surprised I shared some of mine so quickly I said I had to or I would disappear. YOu have to dissociate with the bad stuff but my T said something I still remember. To relive it it can't hurt again like it did the first time because you were strong enough to live through it and memories aren't the same as the the real people that hurt you orginally. Take the meds. I am. My T said ok to take them for a while. They are helping not 100% but enough to take the edge off things. I am not so bad. I am still remembering bad stuff, still depressed but not in despair land. Of course you are mixed up we came from messed upville. But we you all of us will be ok one day. Little by little. But you are reaching a deep point with the younger little girl that knows some things you dont but they are only MEMORIES they CANT HURT YOU. In remembering you will SET yourself FREE. Remember that. You can get through this pain and be whole. Your T is strong enough. If she wasn't she would have fleed a LONG time ago. Dont worry bout her just you the best one I know muffled you will be ok. I got your back. You are sweet lady too. rk
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