Posted by Muffled on November 7, 2007, at 14:17:44
So I said some pretty nasty stuff to t. I have realized it was fear generated and explained it to her. She DID say she don't like to be called names, and I LOVE that she honest, cuz then I can trust she not b*llsh*tt*ng me.
I have been sort of ooozing stinking sh*t her way.
She say thats OK.
I dunno.
The thing of it all though that I am SO confused about...is that I feel little or no emotions as I read/write some presumably nasty stuff as relates to this body I guess. I have little memory, just bits, some visual. Just sorta technical bits bout certain things. I describe it dipassionately...but its pretty obvo what it might be.
No emotions.
My head spins some.
My T hammering away at me to take meds.
Who am I?
I am not the child.
I am nothing.
I dunno what meds to take.
HATE seroquel.
All mixed up am I.
Maybe take some little bit of seroquel to get thru this hump....since I still got some.
My T is so nice.
Sweet nice lady.
I feel like I am making her dirty with my filth.
:-(
M
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