Posted by TherapyGirl on November 2, 2007, at 19:06:08
In reply to Re: Two sessions this week **Triggers** » TherapyGirl, posted by Daisym on November 1, 2007, at 22:07:00
Thanks, Daisy.
And I'm right there with you about my fear about what surprises are left. Even on my good days.
I'm a big reader, so if you would send me the name of that book, I'd appreciate it. It would give my thoughts an outlet that is better than the outlet I naturally come up with when it's like this.
I am still depressed, but functional now. So at least I can deal with it. I'm a little anxious about how the weekend will play out (it's little man's birthday), but I feel as comfortable as I can with the plans I have in place for dealing with it.
I should probably have the afterlife discussion with my T. We did venture into spiritual territory last night -- which I usually veer away from. But I was telling her that one of my friends suggested to me last weekend that I pray for myself -- that God will be there for me when no one else is, blah, blah, blah. In theory, I get that and I want to be comforted by that. But there was a 5-year-old in my head screaming, "If God wouldn't protect ME, why would he protect HER? Where the h*ll was he when my mother was beating the sh*t out of me?" Okay, maybe it was my teenager and not my 5-year-old, but you get the drift. My T chose not to respond to that, but instead asked me to think about asking my friend to pray WITH me the next time. She thinks that would open up avenues of support from my friend that she has had trouble expressing in the past. I don't know if I can do it or not, but I'm thinking about it. I'd love it if you would post about your conversation with T about the afterlife.
Thanks for everything, Daisy. I will check in as I can over the weekend.
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