Posted by Daisym on November 1, 2007, at 22:07:00
In reply to Re: Two sessions this week **Triggers** » Daisym, posted by TherapyGirl on November 1, 2007, at 18:38:42
I'm glad I could help, at least a little. Sometimes I feel so hypocritical about this topic though. What I *know* is that feelings shift and change and we never know what surprises are waiting down the road. What I fear is that all the surprises left for me are bad. :(
I went through a phase where I read everything I could about suicide. There is one book in particular that was helpful - let me know if you are a reader. It, obviously, isn't a "planning" book, but more a research study on why people do this and the despair they feel. It helped me in some dark moments I think because this was the subject that was on my mind. And if I wasn't going to actively pursue it, I wanted to passively explore it. Or maybe I was just obsessed...I'm not sure.
As far as the hospital - I've never been in for this. I've been close. I think your therapist is being honest about her legal obligations but I think you do have to trust that you might not be able to make really good decisions for yourself at times. She won't do this lightly or without a lot of thought. I'm glad you are being so honest with her.
If if you aren't at the top of your game at work right now, so what? Everyone has bad weeks, feels ill or has problems. It is just your turn. Try not to be so hard on yourself.
On Tuesday, my therapist and I spent half the session talking about what I believe happens when we die - is there an afterlife and all that. We talked about ghosts and spirits and universal consciousness. It was a weird conversation, philosophical and theoretical. Maybe he is afraid I'm going to haunt him?
I'm glad you have a plan for the weekend. Don't forget to check in here too.
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